by: Lisa A. Leitl
Everyday, I look into my room – the one where I have my guitars, amplifiers, and my songwriting notebook serving as furniture.
Here is where it all begins . . . the writing, the practice, the playing and of course, Resistance. I can come up with a million reasons why I shouldn’t step in there right now and begin.
This is the moment of truth. How badly do I want to improve? Can I face another day in front of a blank sheet of paper? I have no idea what I’m doing and or if I can even get one word out and through my pen. This isn’t just once in a while, it is a daily war. It’s the fight against the two parts of me. There is one who is wanting to put off practice and writing for another hour or maybe even another day. Then there is the other side of me, the one that knows the true battle is in the starting. Just a simple act of getting in the room and sitting in the chair. That’s the hard part. That is the difference maker between the Lisa who will be average and the Lisa who will excel.
I wish that I could tell you that I jump up out of bed ready and raring to hit the music! I would love to proclaim that I am excited about what will come out today or how well my practice will go. These, however, are the rare moments. For me most of the time it is a tug of war between Avoidance and Getting Started.
Here’s the great part of all of this. There is something that keeps me coming back day after day.
It is the knowing.
Yes, it’s the knowing I have overcome this before. I have experience on my side. Through constant repetition and ritual, I know that if I just sit and pick up my guitar, things will start to flow. Before I know it, the all-too-familiar feelings of an aching wrist and sore back are my cues that I am putting in my work. I have no idea how much time has gone by or if what I wrote today will turn into a song or stay in the “idea” file. It matters not. I do know however that I did the work. I worked on my craft for another day. I can walk out of the room knowing that I overcame, at least for today, the resistance battle.
I won’t think about the future. I am fully present, guitar in hand. Tomorrow will come soon enough.
Lisa A. Leitl , Musician, Mentor and Songwriter
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